i don’t know why.
at first i’m really excited, snuggled up and ready to go

half way through when things start going wrong i just get all sympathetic for the characters

and then in the end im happy they’re together and shiz

but then i realize my life will never be like that. ever.

why do i do this to myself?

Bah. I still really like you. Not gonna lie. I’m a little afraid things won’t be the same anymore. Not much I can do about that. So far, we’ve been able to bounce back to our version of normal. Let’s see if this is something we can waltz over, too. 

I probably should fight for you more instead of being so incredibly passive. And I would if I really felt like you were mine to claim. I want to be able to be possessive of you, but how can I? I just hate having to be the one who has to do all the fighting/trying. So, sorry, but that isn’t going to happen until I feel like you deserve it and won’t take it for granted. 

I was happy before you; I can be happy after you.
I was happy before you; I can be happy  after you. 
I was happy before you; I can be happy  after you. 
I was happy before you; I can be happy  after you. 
I was happy before you; I can be happy after  you.